Monday 19 December 2011

Weeks gone by

It can get a bit exhausting, seeing people, going places, doing stuff, drinking this, eating that etc. but I love it. People and music and lights and nice food and prosecco fill me up with energy and joy. It's not about Christmas, here. It was a good weekend, we are family.
It ended with Black Lips throwing toilet paper at us and one hairy guy showing his hairy ass on stage.
Oh,well.

Tuesday 13 December 2011

2011

This year has been gentle to me. I need to remember that.

Monday 12 December 2011

Monday morning

If you break the coffee machine that everyone uses - at work - at least don't pretend you didn't.
Really, it's Monday morning and everyone is going to want to kill you, but at least act like an adult and take all the insults you deserve.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Wednesday 7 December 2011

Complicazioni

Sometimes there's this big conflict between the person I think I am because I'd like to be and the person I am for real which is not exactly up to my expectations.
Funny.

Going up and Coming down

I made up my mind, I need to change my job.
What used to be nicely bearable until two days ago feels now like the most excruciating agony in the world. Now the problem is that I'm not particularly skilled or anything, but there must be a place for me somewhere. I'm looking and feeling quite desperate, but that's the norm. At least I can stay here and think I won't be here, it's already a relief.

Monday 5 December 2011

Messy weekend gone better

sleepless night - massive fight - work - optimism - selfishness - massive fight - sleeping on the sofa - breaking up - breaking down - breakfast alone - lunch with the girls - massive fight to make up - love - curry out - looking up - long walks - bed - sunday brunch - walks again - love.

i love him so much but sometimes i worry about different pages.

Friday 2 December 2011

No sleep

There is something terribly lonely about the city.
People say it’s the distances, the rush, whatever. I don’t really know.
I only know you quickly learn to be self-sufficient and super-efficient 'cause that’s what it takes to be here. You learn that you got yourself to count on and that people may come and go breaking your heart and building up walls. You learn that you might have to put your dreams aside for a while cause you need to bring bread to the table, your table, so maybe a low paid relatively safe job is what it takes, but then it gets difficult. That little while you had in mind starts endlessly stretching, the money is never enough and as you try to work on this you get a little lost, cause yes, as I said, it gets difficult.